Another one bites the dust.

 I always have such a hard time sleeping the night before appointments. I went in for a follicle scan yesterday, hoping for good results. Things looked not too bad, but my follicles weren't as big as they needed to be. They would like them to be over 18 to make sure that they are mature and can be fertilized. She also gave me an Rx for some estrogen pills to try and make the lining in my uterus thicker. One of the side effects of Clomid is it can thin the lining of the uterus over time. I need a nice thick place for my little pea to grow. So all in all my apt was OK.
 I go back again tomorrow for another scan to make sure that my follicles are big enough and can hopefully do my trigger shot. My side effects from the clomid don't seem as bad this time around. I have the added bonus of the estrogen side effects and most likely the trigger shot side effects. It will all be worth it when our little miracle happens.
If it's not a successful cycle this time around, I think we are going to op for IUI (intrauterine insemination) the next go round. I seem to be handling things a lot better this month. hopefully I will continue to be in control of my emotions. On a good note, we just switched insurances and they should cover my ultrasounds. That is the best news we've had since starting this journey. I just have to keep reminding myself that 2013 is our year!

Set backs

Well this month didn't go as well as I had hoped. U/s was beautiful and everything looked right on track. My body had other ideas,I ended up with a bad case of Bronchitis with really put a damper in things. I was hoping everyday that I would feel better and be able to continue on with our plan, but I actually was feeling worse. We decided to bag it this month and hope that next month is better. I had a really hard time at first thinking how much money we had put into this and it was all going to be a big waste. Luckily I have the worlds best husband who can put anything into perspective. Hoping for better vibes this next time around.

Back to the Drawing Board

Well... Let just jump right into it. Not pregnant....yet. I went and had my blood drawn early Wed morning knowing there was a 95% chance that there was no bun in the oven. I still had anxiety all day waiting for the phone call to tell me what I already knew. I get to start the whole process all over again in a few weeks. What worries me is that I booked a trip to see my sister that will probably fall right during my ovulation time. What to do then? I am always afraid of doing something that will mess up our chances this month. I picked up a few more days at work and low and behold, that's when my period started. I have 4 days of work that I can't slip away from. I called the Dr office to see what I'm supposed to do. Luckily they said I could skip my baseline u/s this month and just come in a week after I started my clomid. My husband always say that I can't put my life on hold while trying to get to our goal. It is awfully hard to try and plan anything more than a few months ahead because you never know how your body it going to react. Any way... enough of my ranting I just wish everything would work according to my plan. It that too much to ask?

TWW

Well, I had my first ultrasound and nothing too impressive was happening. They decided to put me on another dose of Clomid (150 mg) to see if they could get my ovaries to grow something good. I went and picked up my rx and started right away like a good girl. For all of you that don't know, these medications do a number on  your emotions and sanity. I always have side effects and remind myself that it is totally worth feeling crazy, having hot flashes, vision changes, and a list I would rather not share. I received my other medications from an online pharmacy which was awesome. They just came to my door, no waiting at the pharmacy. I am not looking forward to sticking myself with a needle, but once again it will be worth it.
 I go back in a week and see what grew,. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I have some mature eggs in there. I have to get past how much all of this costs. I knew what we were getting into but it's different when you actually have to fork it over. Every ultrasound I have done is $192, plus my online medications which were $162. Thankfully our insurance covers one of the rx. I just have to remember that $$$ is just that, it is there to help us out, not control us.
Fingers crossed until next week!

Grow Baby Grow

Well, I had my first ultrasound and nothing too impressive was happening. They decided to put me on another dose of Clomid (150 mg) to see if they could get my ovaries to grow something good. I went and picked up my rx and started right away like a good girl. For all of you that don't know, these medications do a number on  your emotions and sanity. I always have side effects and remind myself that it is totally worth feeling crazy, having hot flashes, vision changes, and a list I would rather not share. I received my other medications from an online pharmacy which was awesome. They just came to my door, no waiting at the pharmacy. I am not looking forward to sticking myself with a needle, but once again it will be worth it.
 I go back in a week and see what grew,. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I have some mature eggs in there. I have to get past how much all of this costs. I knew what we were getting into but it's different when you actually have to fork it over. Every ultrasound I have done is $192, plus my online medications which were $162. Thankfully our insurance covers one of the rx. I just have to remember that $$$ is just that, it is there to help us out, not control us.
Fingers crossed until next week!

The Begining

Boy meets girl...Boy dates girl.....Boy and girl fall in love... Boy and girl get married....Boy and girl have a baby.... That's where this boy and girls journey begins!
(For those of you that are already bored, I suggest you exit this blog now)
 I have known my Ob/Gyn Dr. Sam for many years, and knew we would be in wonderful hands when we were ready to expand our little family. She is AMAZING and so smart, and the BEST ever! After 5 months and zero signs of pregnancy we started with all of the diagnostic testing. I have never been normal and always felt like getting pregnant would take a little extra help, lucky for me Dr. Sam knows more than she ever wanted to know about me. We were able to get a head start on a lot of the testing most Dr. wait a year to test for. All of my test came back normal. Good sign right?...
Next came the medications, and the routine of counting days and peeing on sticks.  Month after month I continued this routine keeping my fingers crossed each time. No success, sperm and egg had not met yet. Then I got a call from my beloved Dr. Sam saying that she would give me 2 more tries on Clomid before it was time to do IUI (intrauterine insemination). Wow... that is not what I expected. I know a lot of couples deal with infertility issues and have to go to great lengths to reach their goal, but us? I wasn't prepared for this. Luckily for me, I have the most supportive, loving, easy going husband in the who world. It takes a lot to get Adam bent out of shape.
Today I got the best news... better news than I was expecting. I had a consult with a new Dr at a fertility clinic to go over my history and create a plan. She told me that our fertility score really wasn't that bad and gave me a few options. I get to start new medications, lots of ultrasounds and many more Dr. visits before I have to worry about IUI. Let me just tell you how ecstatic I am about this. I have been dreading IUI! I go back in a week for more fun and hope everything goes well.
Now that I'm sure I am the only one still reading this...
I'm Courtney and I have fertility issues... I just thought you should know.